Friday, November 09, 2007
@ 10:57 PM
oh... didn't really notice tat i didn't blog for another 1 week.... wondering y i always didn't blog... n i dun really miss blogging... unless i am sad or what...
i just wanna say out... really hard keeping in myself... sometimes, i really feel like crying out loud...wondering if i did my best to be a good sister... sometimes,things make mi feeling like walking out of the house. but i dun dare and dun wanna my parent to worried over mi... as i am old enough... being the eldest in the family, i should not let my let my parent worried mi as they devote mi... thanks mummy n daddy... haha...n therefore i think i should not because of 2 person & do something wrong...
my brother is angry with mi for 1 week... n did not tok to mi for the past 1 week...sometime i wonder y he is so petty...just because i didn't allow him to watch high school musical(repeat) as i wanted to watch " good morning teacher" . is it i always have to allow the others to do whatever they want first before i can do mine??? this is not the first time this happen... i always allow him to turn the TV to another channel...just because of him... i have to watch power ranger... y cant he just give in to mi once... it is only once you know... when i tok to him,. he just walk off... as if i am toking to the wall.... he did this, have he ever considerate my feeling before???
the next one is my sister... i didn't do anything then she just treat mi like enemies... what did i do wrong??? toking to her is like talking to myself.... i wanted her to do something for mi then she will say " NO" ... not only tat... when i ask her to help mi log in to her acc coz my account cant be use... the ignored mi n when to sleep... what the... actually tats the reason y i didn't online.... haix... yesterday, my mummy wanted my bro to drink soup form the the pot...then i told my bro.. but my bro ignored mi... when i ask my sis to ask my bro to drink, she answered mi back... y cant u do it yourself??? when i told her my bro is angry with mi, she say " very good what..."
I really feel hurt !!! Y cant my sibling & i just be as close as friends???just allowing mi to share my swallow with one another... i really dun know who to tok to....I really feel lost..
when i told my parent my bro is angry with mi becoz of the TV show n i say he is petty.... my dad ask mi one question... y i be a sister so si bai... when he told mi this , i really feel like crying... later on my mum add on, she say both my parent dote mi the most.. i say i know... i answer back... y i know... tats y i dun fight back with my sibling usually.... coz i think i am a growth up...
sometimes, when toking to my friends, my friends will be like asking about my sibling n telling mi about their sibling... i was like so enviour about them...thinking y cant my silbling be like theirs... just listern to them as the are older... y cant they just respect mi??? okay... not asking for respect... i just wanna them to listern to mi... i ask nothing much.... really got nothing to say... i am really useless... haiz....cant even be a good sis...
